May Prompts!!!

In my tradition of biting off more than I can chew, I decided to add a ton of prompts to my Bullet Journal for May! I think it will be a good way to encourage myself to write more and document my life. I think documenting your life is such a good idea because your children or other family would really love to have these artifacts of your life.

So the prompts I will be doing this month are the following:

Decade Thirty’s Self-Care Prompts
Decade Thirty’s Daily Prompt Cycle
Decade Thirty’s Lists Prompts
The Plan With Me Challenge
BorderlineBrilliance for Borderline Personality Disorder Awareness

AND!!! Because I don’t have enough going on (lol) I applied to go back to college for a semester. I’m taking it a semester at a time, part-time only. I don’t want to burn myself out and I don’t want to plan farther because if something comes up, I don’t want to feel like I loser if I have to take a break again.

So May should be interesting as I prepare more for the wedding, college, my big project, and all these prompts! Should be exciting!

A New Bullet Journal for a New Life

Good news! I am back to blogging and a few other hobbies I let die! I got very lazy and complacent recently but with the wedding coming up and tasks piling ever higher, I’ve realized I need to get back to organizing and sharing my life!

You can see my original Bullet Journal here.

I did some research and I found some fresh ideas from some amazingly creative planner addicts. I’m grateful for finding such a wonderful community of sharing. I decided to get the insanely popular Leuchtturm. I loved my soft cover Moleskine but I liked the features the Leuchtturm has that the Moleskin doesn’t. This journal is definitely more lovely, the cover is wonderfully made and the band is much stronger in my opinion. I also love the second bookmark and the stickers for labeling.

The biggest change I’ve included is the Calendex. You can find more info about this method for future planning here (the Bullet Journal site) and here (BohoBerry). I’ve taken heavy inspiration here from Kara at BohoBerry (as I have with a lot of these layouts!). I used her legend for events and paydays, but added highlighted days for when Brian is on call. I like having this at-a-glance method of future planning. I had considered trying the Post-It method that’s under the above link for BohoBerry, and I think it would be perfect for me, but I wanted to give this a try. If it turns out to be too much, then I’ll change it in the next BuJo! I’m just really into trying new things. I throw it all at the wall and see what sticks!

I’m trying to dedicate one day a week to writing and creating Snail Mail for friends, so I’ve included a Snail Mail tracker to record what I send and receive. I love the idea of sending a receiving fun mail, everyone loves getting snail mail that isn’t bills!! I plan on sending handmade pieces, postcards (real and fabricated), and letters. It’s a lot of fun to know you’ve given someone a lil surprise in their mailbox! For tons of Snail Mail inspiration check out my current fave: Naomi Loves. She has a lot of beautiful Snail Mail projects!

Also inspiration from BohoBerry, I started a daily gratitude log. Here I write two things every day that made me thankful for this life. This is one of three journal prompts I’m using at the moment, and I’ll be adding more in May because I have no chill.

I have to start a new diet soon so I’ve stolen even more inspiration from other BuJo addicts and started a meal planner. It’s helped me a lot for organizing possible meals.

My month review and daily pages are stolen directly from Kara at BohoBerry. I’m a shameless thief!!! I love how open the BuJo community is and how much sharing goes on. It makes getting started in Bullet Journalling much easier and a lot more fun.

I also started a brand new thing for my daily tracking: wellness tracking. I really enjoy having a way to log my daily wellness in those five areas: Happiness, Calmness, Energy, Physical Health, and Fulfillment. Then I take that day’s total and put it in the bar chart so I can see over time my general wellness patterns.

I liked the idea of including the weather because it’s cute, but it takes up a lot of room and considering I never leave the house, this information doesn’t do me a lot of good, so I may drop it next month. Another part of my new diet is that I need to take in more water, so I found this adorable water tracker from a fellow BuJo junkie, unfortunately I don’t remember from whom I got this gem :(. I wasn’t sure at first about including the time tracker at the top of each day (BohoBerry again) because I don’t tend to have many planned events, but I like it a lot so far. It’s nice to have a quick way to judge my free time when planning events or squeezing something in at the last moment.

I should note, too, that with the wedding (and another top-secret project) coming up, I’ll be using many of these tools a LOT more than I am now, because I don’t currently have many events.

In a moment of naiveté, I’ve decided to attempt a few different prompts next month to keep my mind active. I’ve already put DecadeThirty‘s self care prompts into my journal, but I’ll also be trying the two other prompt cycles included on Decade Thirty’s site. I’m probably biting off a lot more than I can chew, but I like trying new things and seeing what works.

A big thing I may try next month will be cutting down on color. I’ve read from a few other BuJo addicts that too much color can make their journal look messy or chaotic. I think I agree. I still like color for some accent, but I’m currently using too much and it makes the glance-ability of my Bullet Journal pretty low.

Although I took big inspirations from the above blogs, I took many little notes from all of the following Bullet Journal artists. Please check them all out (I follow them all on Instagram) for lots of lovely ideas:

*Boho Berry – Blog IG
*DecadeThirty – Blog IG
Studyign – YouTube IG
LetteringandPlanning- IG
*OhayBento – Blog IG
Tiny Ray of Sunshine – Blog IG

There are MANY MANY more, but I can’t list them all here. Please visit my Instagram and view who I’m following for even more!

Here all photos of my journal as of now.

 

My Bullet Journal – Week 1

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This is my Bullet Journal. It’s kind of hard to explain what a bullet journal is. It’s basically a self-made planner.

2 Empty Journal

I chose to use a dotted journal, as I saw most people on Pinterest did the same. It give guides for my own personalized pages. The bullet journal allows you to make the planner/journal that you need, exactly what you need, nothing more or less, and you can change it anytime you need to. It’s super easy and fun.

3 Journal

Here is a picture of the journal as it is today.

4 Index

This is the index page I made. I don’t use it usually, I just flip through it until I find what I need, my journal is still pretty small.

5 Legend

This is the legend that I use to denote the things I write in my daily pages, tasks, events, how important they are, etc. You can make it however you want or need. Mine is based off the ones I found on Pinterest.

6 Calendar

This is a great example of how you can change the journal as you need because I didn’t originally put this calendar page in, but I realized yesterday that I need a quick glance of the months when I’m making plans, so I drew this up in a few minutes and it looks great! The Long Term Savings page need work, obviously, but I haven’t figured out how I exactly want to draw it up.

7 Future Plans

I only have 2 future plans, I’m pretty cool like that. But I hope I fill this up with lots of things I want to do.

8 Alter Ideas

I do alters on Magic: The Gathering cards and I’ve been on haitus since the move so I’m starting to p[ut together ideas for cards to paint again. TOP SECRET 😀 I made this Wants and Needs page because I have trouble prioritizing my spending, as soon as we get paid, I buy whatever is on my mind. These lists let me see what I want/need and figure out how important it really is to buy.

9 Blog Ideas

A very short list so far! But The second thing there should be pretty fun to do, hopefully you agree!

10 Movies, Books, Shows

A list of things I want to read/see because I’m awful at remembering things. *Adds something that I keep forgetting*

11 Goals

My Goals list is slightly different than my Future Plans. These are concrete objectives I want to accomplish whereas the Future Plans are more vague things I want to do like “buy a house.” These goals might be like “Get my BAE” with a date in mind.

12 Places to Explore

This is a list for places in our area that I want to check out either as a date or on my own. I haven’t sat down yet and worked on it…obviously.

13 Creative Ideas

This page is pretty useless because I ended up adding pages for specific creative projects, but it’ll be useful if I ever have something that I have to write down quickly.

14 Notes

Similar to the previous page, this is for a quick note that I can flesh out more thoroughly later. I have a plan to make meal plans for us, but I haven’t dedicated pages to it in the journal yet. I’m actually excited about this project.

15 Weight Tracker

I’m working on slowly easing myself into losing weight, and this is my first step. I weigh myself once a week. It sucks.

16 Daily Schedule

My daily schedule is done with sticky notes because it’s something that can change any time. I also don’t really use it too much now that I have this journal because it encourages working off of lists instead of a time-based schedule which helps me a lot.

17 Weekly Task Tracker

These are the tasks I need to get done every week, so far I only have 4 things, not too crazy.

18 Important Dates

Important dates so far is just birthdays.

19 Daily Task Tracker

This is my daily task tracker. I have found that it holds me more accountable than the time-based schedule does, because with the time based one, if I don’t get something done at the appointed time, then I’m a failure. With the task tracker, I just have to get the stuff done, doesn’t matter when. ALSO, I don’t feel as bad when I don’t get things done because I can look at this and see that I have accomplished a lot of other things. I always accomplish more with positive reinforcement than negative, so this makes me feel god about when I’m getting done instead of feeling awful about what I haven’t.

20 October

My month view of October.

21 October Days

My daily view of October days. I also track my eating habits, which SUPPOSEDLY helps people eat better, so we will see how that goes. You can see my utilization of my legend markings.

22 November

23 December

My November and December overviews.

I love this journal, I think it’s perfect for me, It helps me so much and it’s really fun to keep up with. I’ve been more productive this week than I have in months, just because I started using this thing. It’s fun to make pretty and update and it’s cute, so I’m more likely to use it. This is the best idea I’ve had in a long time! I’ll post an update in a month to show the progress. Let me know if you have any suggestions and feel free to check out the inspiration I got from my Planner board on Pinterest: My Planner Board

642 Things to Write About – Day 1

I got this book a month or so ago. I was hoping it would help me with my aggressive creative block. Writing prompts help so much to get things moving in my mind. I got a drawing version as well and I plan on doing something similar with that one.

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I’m going to do a prompt from this book and post that entry on here every Wednesday. It’ll be great! /sarcasm

I’m hoping this will help get me used to writing again since I haven’t really dedicated time to it in a long time. So, that being said, here is the first prompt:

What can happen in a second?

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It only takes a second for me to lose any and all inspiration. I began writing something more personal for this prompt but in a second I felt too much and backed down. I’m not ready yet to let out my really personal stuff yet. I still feel more comfortable avoiding those feelings than letting them out. When I’m really struggling and I’m alone with my partner, I feel free to express all the pain I’m holding onto, but even that is a huge step for me. It took a long time for me to feel safe enough to let out my feelings to my partner, he had to really work with me and prove that he wouldn’t hurt me by acting like my feelings and problems weren’t important. That was a big problem I’ve had in past relationships, my partners blowing me off or trying to convince me that my problems weren’t bad enough to be concerning. I’m so lucky to have found someone that takes my dreams and my insecurities, and anything else that I struggle with, very seriously.

I have to admit, even writing that was emotional for me. I feel a little worn out.

How to be a Person

I struggle with some very severe behavioral health disorders. It makes it hard (impossible) to complete simple asks and, as of now, prevents me from working a typical job. I do my art and that makes me a little money, but that’s all I can handle. I have worked jobs and I recently had a full time job that I loved, but at some point the added stress of working on top of my disorders made it impossible for me to continue. I try to be productive as a “housewife” but with only a small apartment to care for, a very independent partner, and no children or animals, I’m often struggling to make myself useful.

My amazing partner is very understanding about my struggles and loves to help me find solutions, so last night we made me a schedule to help me stay busy and also battle some of my anxiety. Here is the schedule right now:

10 am – wake up – brush teeth – make bed – eat breakfast – internet/phone time

11:30 am – Read something

12:30 – Go adventuring

2 pm – Lunch

3 pm – Creative Time

5 pm – Dishes/house work – tv – internet

He gets home around 7 pm so the schedule ends there, and it’s really only fro the 4 days a week he works, we have fun and do all our errands on his days off, so I am, able to stay busy. I’m glad that we included to brush my teeth because self-care is something I struggle with a lot. Seeing it in my schedule reminds me to do it, and gives me the motivation to.

Schedule in reading time forces me to not just turn into a zombie in front of the computer and do something that I really enjoy. I love learning and I love reading. It makes me feel better because my mind is working, I hate having a lazy mind.

Going adventuring is our cute way of saying “leave the damn apartment.” I’m very isolated here, we’ve only lived in this area for a few weeks, I don’t know anyone here, my partner is the only person I see, so I need to get out of the house. I do struggle with agoraphobia so leaving the apartment alone is a HUGE challenge for me. It gets far worse the longer I go without leaving. BUT I also feel awful being so isolated and I hate giving in to my disorders. Anxiety ruled my life for so long, and I’m not willing to give it that power over me again. Therefore, I MUST keep trying and fighting against it. Today, I gave into that fear. I had plans for my partner’s friends to come pick me up and go to a park nearby, but they cancelled. They invited me to their place to hang out, but I felt too fragile and alone to leave. I refuse to feel defeated, though. It’s just a minor set back. My partner and I came up with ways to get me out of the house without too much “excitement: like taking myself out for lunch or indulging in some Starbucks.

Creative is also so important for me to schedule so I make myself sit and work on something instead of waiting for the ever-elusive inspiration to strike. Today, I’m being creative by working on this blog and then I’m going to do another color-by-number. I’m thinking I should buy some more coloring books so I have more variety, I’ll talk to my partner about that idea tonight.

Scheduling time for tv/internet helps me not waste my entire day doing those things and still lets me get all the time-wasting fun my heart desires.

I love my schedule and as time goes on I’m sure we will adjust it so I’m more active and maybe leave the house more. I have to be patient with myself and be proud of small victories. I’m proud of myself today for working on this blog and for cleaning the apartment. I also showered and made myself a real lunch so that’s pretty awesome for my self-care.

I may not be perfect and I’m sure a lot of people may believe I’m lazy, but I know I’m working hard and making progress. As long as my partner and I know how hard I’m working, that’s all that matters ❤

Tales of a Divorcee – The Hearing

This morning was the hearing to dissolve my marriage. The final step to terminating 3 years of marriage and the 8 years of relationship in total. I traveled two hours to where our hearing was, leaving home at 7am. I took this trip alone, my boyfriend was not able to get the day off from work.

I didn’t think anything this morning on my way to meet my ex-husband at his house which used to be ours. I had a blank mind so I’d have the strength to do this. I love my ex-husband very much, he was never bad to me and we are friends. Sometimes I wonder if this would have been easier if we weren’t still friends, if I hated him or if he was terrible. It doesn’t matter, I guess, it’s awful and sad anyway.

Today was hard, tonight was harder. I cried a lot. It’s so hard to describe what hurts and why I’m so sad, when I’m the one that wanted to leave. I guess I’m mourning our life together and all the dreams we had. I know I did the right thing and I know we will be happier apart than we were together, but it’s still sad. I mourn being someone’s wife and mattering so much to someone. I mourn being his safe place and his being my home. I don’t want it back, but it’s still so sad. It’s such a strange dichotomy. I’m torn between two worlds.

I’m so lucky to have a partner that understands how hard this is for me and so so supportive. My boyfriend has been incredibly patient and understanding through this whole process. This would be so so much harder to do alone.

I am ending this entry here feeling heartbroken but optimistic for myself and for my ex-husband. I know he will be fine and happy. I hope a really wonderful woman discovers him, he deserves the very best. He’s a wonderful man, we just didn’t work anymore. I think the future will be bright for both of us.

(I’m too tired and emotionally ruined to proofread atm, here’s hoping this is legible.)

Trying to Be Creative – a lesson in not trying

Lately, I’ve had a major artistic block. I’ve felt the strong desire to make something, but when I try to think of what I want to make nothing happens. It’s extremely frustrating. So, when I get these intense needs to make something combined with a terrible creative block I have a back-up plan.

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I break out my trusty Prismacolor colored pencils. They are so amazing to use, the pigments are vibrant and super soft. I haven’t used my Crayola pencils in a long time, so I’ll have to try those out soon and see how different the two brands are.

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This is a book I picked up in Paris. I had been wanting a good art therapy book for a while, but I had been struggling to find one that was affordable and had interesting pictures. Of course, a month after I return from Europe with about 7 art therapy books in tow, I find that adult coloring books have really taken over. TIME TO BUY MORE I GUESS HAAA.

Anyway, I love this one especially because it’s color by number, so I really don’t have to be very inspired at all, no pressure, just color and make something pretty. Also, it has the oddest collection of faces ever: Princess Diana, Kanye West, Ghandi, etc.

The uncolored portraits are super hard to tell what they are, so I usually just choose one at random and don’t look at who it’s supposed to be until I’m done. Here is the one I chose this time, supposed to be done in grays.

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However, because I’m SO CLEVER, I decide to do these in alternative colors, sometimes monochromatic, sometimes just a bunch of color chaos. This time I chose some shades of green.

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I didn’t manage to get a shot of the portrait before I started, but even after one or two colors, you can see that it’s a little hard to tell what the image will be.

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Here’s a few more colors. (This one only needed 5 colors so pretty simple)

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And here’s my finished product!

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Doing these helps relieve so much stress. I get to zone out and just get out some creativity without any of my self-imposed stress. And I’m often very proud of what I make. I’m thinking next time I’ll do some bold crazy color combos. I did one like that in Paris and I really love it, even though it looks like nonsense.

I hope this post inspires you to find a low-pressure, fun way to get out your creativity so you can feel productive!